• epic mess,  thoughts

    epic mess 6.30.14

    It’s 1:30 pm. I’m still in my pajamas and my kids in underwear and diaper. There are raisins ground into the living room rug and dishes covering all the countertops. The laundry in the dryer is making the house 10 degrees hotter. My temper is flaring, combined with anxiety and sadness. An epic mess of emotion. I should read my Bible, and I do. I don’t feel that comforted but at least I did it. I should clean the kitchen but instead I lay on the couch. My oldest is supposed to be resting in his room but instead I hear him piling crap on top of more crap. I’m…

  • life,  thoughts

    the email.

    My aunt was shredding documents at her courthouse job when she came across emails my mom had sent over 11 years ago. It said nothing interesting but for some reason it was just such a nice reminder to see this.  To remember that she was alive and had a real life and that at one time I got to share it with her here on earth. After nearly 11 years of her being gone it’s easy to forget what everyday life was like and to remember only the sickness or the important moments.  But these everyday moments, emails at work, are something to treasure.

  • gardens,  house,  life,  neighborhood,  thoughts

    giving thanks.

    The smell of sweet honeysuckle drifts through the air. I study the plant that will eventually creep up the wire to shade our porch and smile. I look at the flowers that line our porch, the food growing in our yard. My heart could almost burst from gratefulness. A house once broken, now redeemed. How long before it would have been condemned? But now it sits on it’s corner, shining bright for all to see. To remember what it used to be and see what it is. And to know, hopefully, Light is there.