Soul Watering

I had some extra time to tidy up before dinner today and noticed my plants. My first thought was that I should water them, but then quickly changed it to “Nah, it hasn’t been that long since I last gave them a drink”.

I still decided to water them even though I didn’t see any signs of neglect. I got my watering can out and pulled down a couple of my plants and found that they were indeed withering. They looked strong and green from afar but were in fact very thirsty.

The Lord spoke to me that I need to water before I think I do.

We just had 2 1/2 weeks of someone being ill in our home. This isn’t the worst thing that has ever happened and I know how to handle it pretty well at this point. I thought I was managing well, but then yesterday came and I could feel the effects of stress begin to show in my body.

The Lord has given me my body as a sort of radar, and it likes to go off when I have stressed too much or not been properly nourishing myself. The signs were starting yesterday and it sent me into more worry that these symptoms would evolve into what they sometimes do, a month(s) long fight to feel balanced and good again.

I woke up this morning still in a funk and just tired. I was grumpy and frustrated because everyone was finally well but instead of grateful I felt depleted and annoyed.

I told Brad that it felt like the weight of the past couple weeks was crashing down. He prayed and then offered to bring lunch home.

We sat and ate together and I felt immensely loved by this sweet and simple gesture.

Later I mentioned how I was feeling to a friend and she said she would pray and then offered to take my boys to the park in the afternoon. While they were gone the girls watched a show and I took some quiet time to listen to a sermon, fold laundry, place a grocery order, and take a micro nap.

Today I watered myself before I thought I needed to. Even though it wasn’t so bad that I really felt like I needed prayer, I was still vulnerable with my experience. Instead of just sucking it up and saying “I’ll be fine”, I let my feelings be known and through that I got to receive the grace and mercy of those who love me.

When I was watering our sad lime tree at once water began pouring out of the sides of the pot and onto the floor. Because this plant was not consistently being watered the soil had dried out so much that it now had a hard time holding new water.

Again, the Lord spoke to me: if I am not consistently staying watered with His word and presence it is much harder to hold the water (Holy Spirit) when it does pour. I know there is more coming and I don’t want to miss it. I desire to be a vessel ready to contain the full measure of Holy Spirit that is prepared for me.

The Lord is the true living water and I need to make sure I am drinking from His well.

“But whoever drinks of the water that I will give him shall never thirst; but the water that I will give him will become in him a well of water springing up to eternal life” John 4:14

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