Overthinking

(Most of this was type out at 11:30 pm on my phone notes while, shocker, I was in a pattern of overthinking. I’ve left the writing pretty rough and clunky.)

Overthinking is the enemy’s way to keep us going in circles.

It seems like wisdom to always be learning and bettering ourselves, but we can’t take every little thing we ever heard or experienced and obsess over trying to apply it all.

You know those thoughts lurking in the back of your mind? The ones that you’ve collected over the years from various shows, people, and posts? The ones that cause you to over analyze every symptom, fear, or way you act?

They are NOT GOOD THOUGHTS.

I remember snippets of news shows I watched when I was a kid and still worry that some random crazy event might happen.

I’ve read memoirs about how someone’s parents failed them and worry that I am ruining my own children.

I’ve read comments on the internet that say people with big families are terrible because the older kids end up raising the younger ones and am paranoid that I am putting too much on my big boys.

Overthinking keeps me in this loop of being frozen because around any corner I can find 100 reasons that I have likely already messed something up.

Overthinking fails to find a good solution while looking for the one perfect answer. Spoiler: there’s only one perfect path and His name is Jesus.

Overthinking is a result of too many choices and too much information. In my desire to better myself, I’ve found myself paralyzed with conflicting options.

Overthinking leads to a loss of identity because I’m always trying to be someone or something I’m not.

I’ve spent too many days avoiding what the internet says are problems instead of asking God how I’m made and living that way to the max.